Oh My Baby..

My friend telling me that it is easy to have as many children as you can. The hardest part is to raise them and watch them growing.

I never realized how actually that means, until recently. Last month when Latifah catched cold & cough, I was so panic. But it was nothing. On Saturday, after doctor diagnosed that she got Ear Infection, I began to understand what was her fuzzy all about. I thought it was just her teething. I'm sorry baby..

She was crying all day, asking to be carried most of the time by me (which actually making me proud of myself, hey.. I'm really a MOM now..), and vomiting. Total 6 huge vomit on Saturday, from 00.00 - 24.00. What really broke my heart was the last one, at 22.30when she woke up and gave a big smile to her daddy and then vomit. I saw the way she vomit, her stomach made a big contraction movement and then came out all the yellowish fluid. I knew it was hurt cuz she vomit the last breastmilk already, nothing inside. I couldn't control myself seeing that.. I was screaming, yelling, crying and then carried her. She didn't understand, and laugh at me, which made me cry more.. Oh my baby..

We rushed to Emergency Children and stayed there for almost 3 (three) hours for doctors observation. Alhamdulillah no sign of dehydration or whatsoever which can lead to danger. They advised us to go home, though at first we insisted to stay there. We were so frightened!!

We arrive at home at 01.20 and we put her on the car seat to make her sleep well, and it worked.

We didn't go to office today, stay with her to see her reaction. She rejected all the medicine, though she's in pain. I called our family doctor twice, and suggest the give her suppositories pain killer. It calmed her. She vomit twice only today, with little amount. But she passed loose stool 4 times already. We went to doctor just now, and she said that's how it is (which I already know, but still panicky). She changed the prescription. Hope that she will accept it. She lost 200 grams in 1 day and only consumed 200ml milk. Usually about 750ml per day.

Now I really know what is the mother (and father) feeling, seeing their loved ones sick, injured, or hurt. I can't imagine how the feeling like if their children having more serious illness (which I should be ready for it, God Forbid). I know that children have their own destiny.. but I failed to understand that, for now.

After proclaiming that we want 4 children (my hubby) and 2 (myself), I don't think I'm ready for another baby yet.. Let's just see..

P.S : my hubby just called, he got the medicine for Latifah, after searching in 3 pharmacys. Ya Allah, berilah kesembuhan pada anak kami... amin..